waiting for you

I don't want a perfect relationship. I just want someone who I can act silly with, someone who treats me well and loves being with me.

i am rare

new year resolutions

• Exercise regularly 
• Do at least five run events this year
• Travel, travel, and travel (don’t let money stop me)
• Explore big cities?
• Visit other states?
• Other countries? Four weeks in Europe this summer?
• Read more books
• Decorate my apartment SLOWLY

a hot tea with honey

Everybody have his or her own dream mate. For years, I have an ideal dream guy. I want to fall in love with guy who is athletic, surfer, kids lover, and the list goes on.  Instead, I fell hard for a guy who is opposite of my dream guy. I remember how I find him with a short beard so attractive. He always makes me feel good as a person. It took me a while to realize and accept that I have intense feelings for him. Finally, I understand that love suppose to be happening in a natural way.

With my strong feelings for him… My life changed forever. Because of HIM… My perspective of love changed. My feelings for him were very powerful and unique. I never have these feelings with other guys. Ever. It was scary and exciting experience for me.

For months and months, I kept these feelings to myself. Finally, one day, I told him how I feel about him. Unfortunately, he is not on the same page as I do. I was heart broken. He said that he is not ready to commit a relationship with anyone. Maybe I am not his type, or we do not share the same values, or he thinks I am too good for him. It is something I will never understand him.

Even thought he doesn’t want me. I am forever graceful that he taught me a lot about life. He is quietly gorgeous but I always catch his geeky moments. He is not afraid to show who he is. He is always fun and knows just how to get me laughing at any moment. I love how he takes his life and goals seriously.

This picture always makes me smile. I remember the week I became really sick. He was concerned about me. One day, he bought and brought me a hot tea with honey to work. Despite the fact I was really sick… his surprise put a smile on my face.

Now, I have a new fear. What if I will never find a love of my life who makes me feel good as he did?

other quote...

"All our dreams can come true if we have the courage to pursue them."

       - Walt Disney